正夢？(僕は自分の心に裏切られた)

僕はいつも友だちに「親友のことをこれから忘れるようにするよ」と言って、一所懸命、毎日の生活に親友のことを考えないようにしてがんばっている。今回はがんばっていることは成功する気がしているが、きのう見た夢で、心は自分を裏切られた。あの人のことをまだ気にしているがきっとわかった。

きのうはちょっと変な夢を見た。僕は日本にいたが、場所は僕のハイスクールのような学校だった。驚いたのは、僕は親友と一緒にいた。真実と全然違って、僕たちはすごく仲良くしていた。しかし、前にあの人と仲良くしていたようにいつも一緒で、いろいろお世話になっていた。しかし、夢の中で、いたのはあの人だけじゃなくて、他の知り合いもいた。山形大学に在学している留学生たちもいた。覚えているのは3人で、一人はアフリカ人、もう一人は中国人で、3人目は韓国人だ。

好きな友だちとちょっとはなれて、アフリカ人の友だちにどこかに行こうかって言われて学校内のある場所に誘われた。僕たちは学校の2，3階に行った。しかし、アフリカ人は僕をいじめられて、屋根まで行かせた。そして、屋根をサポートしている部分から何か外して、僕は屋根から戻れなくなってしまった。そのかわいそうな状態で、あの3人の山形大学の留学生たちは僕に笑われた。僕は泣いた。そして、自分の携帯電話を出して、スピードダイヤルして、すぐ出たのは親友の電話番号だった。あの人と電話で話して、今の条件を説明して、すぐ僕がいるところに来た。屋根から戻られるように助かってくれた。まだ泣いている僕を抱きしめて、もう大丈夫よって言われた。やはり、あの人がいなければ、僕はどうなるのかな？

こんな甘い夢を見たままで、気がついて、起きた。僕は自分の一日を嬉しく始めた。今夜は寝ると、またその夢の続きが見られるのか？できたら、いいなぁ。

今回はこの甘い夢をしばらく僕に勝手に味わわせてもらうけど、友だちに約束していたことを忘れずにがんばるよ。おやすみなさい。

Canto Alla Vita

Ever since I was a child I'd loved singing. It was on my fourth grade in primary school that auditions for the school choir was held. The qualifying members would be singing in the school's monthly First Friday masses and to other church services that our school would be participating. Most of us in the fourth grade tried out in the auditions but unfortunately, on my first attempt, I wasn't still aware of the proper breathing while singing and adding to that, my perennial stage fright, known since time immemorial, hindered from from being chosen. My audition piece at that time was "Alleluia, Wikain Mo".

I never gave up, come Christmas season and Ms. Joy had me in a special audition. I recall there were only two of us who tried out. This time I sang Jose Mari Chan's "Christmas in our Hearts" which gloriously made me grab home the bacon.

Being a member of the choir gave me access to the church's loft at the back, a place where I really longed to be ever since. Aside from the regular vocalization before the choir practice, we had fun playing around with my classmates. Though I wasn't able to perform the most coveted role of singing the solo of "Papuri Sa Diyos". That part was always given to boys (never to girls, which made me wonder that time). Now it makes me recall the castratis of the early church. Hence at present I don't regret not being chosden to sing that part. Really!

After a few months, Father Von announced that he would be having another audition. This time within the choir members ourselves. We were afraid that Father Von would trim down the list and personally, that I might be laid off. During the audition, he asked us to sing in the loft and with a microphone. My piece for this audition was "Awit ng Paglaya".

Luckily, I was still in... and Father Von disclosed the reason for the urgent audition. The church would be having a fund raising concert. We performed for two days with matching sailor collared costumes and stuffs. Out of the three pieces that we performed I can barely recall two of them: Lea Salonga's "Tagumpay Nating Lahat" and "A Whole New World". Now it makes me think that the one who chose the songs (whoever he or she was) was a big Lea Salonga fan. Anyway, so it was my debut as a group singer/performer.

I really wanted to pursue singing when I entered high school but for some reason I got intimidated with my new school's glee club. Be it with the instructor or the glee club itself I couldn't think of anymore but unfortunately, the highest step I was able to climb at that time was just as a page turner.

Our school then had a homecoming concert. I was part of the production but on a the back of the stage. I was in charge of preparing the introductions for each guests and I was also able to interview celebrities like Ms. Amy Perez and the like. If I am not mistaken, she was the first celebrity that I have ever met face-to-face. Yet, at the backstage, I felt a bit envious of my schoolmates that made it to the stage, especially those who had solo performances.

My singing career-college edition was too umimpressing for my part though there were two instances, as I recall that I was able to sing. One was during theh freshman orientation, where I sang Westlife cuts with some friends. We had "Flying Without Wings" and "Uptown Girl". Perhaps that performance gave us some credit to back us up as we had Christmas carolling the following season. We "serenaded" some of our professors' homes for two nights ("Pasko Na Sinta Ko", is worthwhile mentioning) and of course, we received some fat(?) amount.

I never realized that my corporate life would give me more exposure to singing than those days that I was still in school. One of my batchmates, Michelle, volunteered me to our project's Christmas party. I was paired up with Mr. Arnel Agbay and we interpreted Rachel Alejandro's "Paalam Na"" for our outgoing manager, Ms. Jennie Chug. This I consider, my formal debut as a solo performer.

The following year I was also lined up for the project's Christmas party. This time I performed a duet with Ms. Hannah Pineda. We sang "Cruisin'". During the performance, Hannah had a bit of a sore throat while I forgot most of the line of the song. Yay!

My MS CS gimmicks just made me sing in front of the videoke with my classmates. No special performances worth mentioning though, they were amazed that I could (could really I?) sing Mandarin songs. Now don't ask me what Mandarin songs, OK?

Landing on the land of the rising sun even gave mo more chances to refine my craft (naks!). It was December 2004, and I was part of our church's choir who performed in the annual Christmas Charity Concert. I was also asked to sing in front of the Yamagata City Lion's Club members where I belted Ken Hirai's "Life Is...". I realized Ken Hirai's genre suits my voice quite well so I chose another Ken Hirai song, "思いがかさなるその前に" (Omoi ga Kasanaru Sono Mae ni - Before the Memories Pile Up), as my entry piece in the first singing contest that I participated in. (See picture above.) For the record, the first singing contest I ever joined was in the Japanese language. Unfortunately for me, I didn't bag any major prize but I won many of the audiences encouraging comments. Most of them even approached me to tell me that they knew how difficult to sing my piece but they were surprized that I was able to sing the piece well.

Oh, I almost forgot (actually I'd rather not mention these but anyway) to mention that I have two unreleased albums. The first one was with Joanne recorded during my vacation in Manila last September and the second one was with Janice when we attended the mathematics conference in Sendai City.

Last December 2005, I sang "If We Hold On Together" with Ate Ligaya at the Fil-Jap Association Christmas Party. This Easter Sunday, I am also part of the group that will sing Josh Groban's "You Raise Me Up" during the Easter Sunday mass.

Let's sing to life then!

Forever Friends Award

*Sorry for not posting Naga-kun and Ai-chan's story until now. I kind of lost my motivation to push it through. May be I'll post it next time. (I hope so.) In exchange of that, I've dug this piece of poetry from an old chest, I mean, old winzip file residing in my hard drive.

Oh, speaking of which, I have a question. How can I remove an old web page's entry in the Google listing? Any tip will be so much appreciated.

FOREVER FRIENDS AWARD

The kind of friends we'll always be...
We'll go where we want and we'll do what we like.
We'll say what we mean and, and mean what we say.
We'll question authority. We'll push the limits.
We'll go out of our ways.
We may fall, but we'll pick ourselves up and try again.
We'll become the best of ourselves. We'll unravel.
We'll roll up our sleeves and roll with the punches.
We'll hurt. We'll heal.
We'll weep and feel.
But we'll be there for each other and we'll survive,
And we'll grow stronger--because we are a "WE",
Because we are FRIENDS, and we will be FOREVER!

The Spirit Is Willing But The Flesh Is Weak

Tonight I went back after seeing some friends that I missed seeing for a few months already. I felt so happy meeting them again. We talked over some snacks and drinks. Yes, we talked in Japanese. There again I realized how unexposed I am to the language especially now that I have no classes in school. But then again, with the hope of seeing each other again, we bade good bye to everyone.

I was about to sleep early tonight after a few weeks of suffering insomnia when I saw my friend Joanne online. It was so seldom that she goes online so I chatted with her. After her, I laso had a chat with a high school friend, Jerico. This time the chat took so long. We ended around 5 in the morning. I surfed a little more afterwards then I had this flush of idea gushing from my mind. I have on mind the story of my two friends, Naga-kun and Ai-chan. I really wanted to put them into writing now but I feel so sleepy already. My back also hurts. I started drafting it but I know very well that it would be long enough for me not to finish it in one sitting. I will just continue writing it after I wake up. The spirit (and the mind) is willing (and you got it, ) but the flesh is weak. Good night, ehr, morning!

Eric's "Sending Off" Playlist

Eric's 전송 [Jeonsong/Sending Off/見送り - Miokuri] Playlist

1. 선[Seon] - 보낼 수 없는 사랑[Bonael Seu Eosnun Sarang/The Love I Can Not Send] (겨울연가 [Gyeomul Yeonga/Winter Sonata] Soundtrack), この曲集のテーマ題歌
2. Gary Valenciano - Warrior Is A Child (Revive), パンガシナン州に行く時に親友といっしょに聴いていた曲その1
3. Gary Valenciano - I Will Be Here (Revive), パンガシナン州に行く時に親友といっしょに聴いていた曲その2
4. Westlife - Flying Without Wings (Westlife), 入学生歓迎会(Freshman Orientation)の時にSUMSの会員が発表した曲その1、最も深い友情(deepest friendship)が親友との友情に指す
5. Alisson Krauss - When You Say Nothing At All (Now That I've Found You), フィリピン大学で数学授業(特に、Math 110.1)が始まる前にいつも親友と聴いていた曲
6. Guns 'N Roses - Sweet Child Of Mine (Appetite for Destruction), 親友がギターで弾いていた曲
7. Kenny Loggins - For The First Time (The Greatest Hits Of Kenny Loggins), 親友と電話で話していた時に流れた曲
8. Savage Garden - Truly, Madly, Deeply (Savage Garden), エリックがカラオケで歌った曲(2000年10月24日-Rose DJの誕生日の祝い、AMC2000)
9. The Calling - Wherever You Will Go (Camino Palmero), 親友が日本に行く前に親友に歌いたかった曲
10. Goo Goo Dolls - Iris (City Of Angels Soundtrack), 親友がカラオケで歌った曲(2000年10月24日-Rose DJの誕生日の祝い、AMC2000)
11. Sarah McLachlan - Angel (City Of Angels Soundtrack), 卒業式の日にヴィンゾン館で親友といっしょに歌った曲その1(2002年4月21日)
12. Westlife - My Love (Coast To Coast), 友人のLannieさんの家に行く途中でjeepneyに乗っていたときに友だちのみんなといっしょに歌った曲(クリスマス会)
13. Westlife - World Of Our Own (World Of Our Own), 卒業式の日にヴィンゾン館で親友といっしょに歌った曲その2(2002年4月21日)
14. Dan Seals - One Friend (In A Quiet Room), 親友とケンカしたときに歌っていた曲
15. Switchfoot - Only Hope (A Walk To Remember Soundtrack), 親友の家に泊まった時にいっしょに歌った曲その1
16. Mandy Moore - Cry (A Walk To Remember Soundtrack), 親友の家に泊まった時にいっしょに歌った曲その2
17. Paul Anka - Put Your Head On My Shoulder (Live In Vegas), パンガシナン州からマニラ行きのバスに乗るとき流れた曲(2002年4月29日)

Mental Exercise #1

Ever since, I have this mental exercise of associating people I know with celebrities. Be it just a product of my rich imagination, or an undeniable similarity, I am presenting a partial list, in no particular order: (Physical similarities are not my only basis.)

1. Raymond G. - Christian Bautista
2. Rey R. - Carlo Aquino/TJ Trinidad/Tom Welling (winner huh!)
3. Lin G. - Tetsuji Tamayama (玉山鉄二), Japanese actor
4. Christine S. - Judy Ann Santos/Sheryn Regis/M. R., OPM singer (ジャニスさん、 「M. R.」はだれか知らせることができないだろうね。)
5. Rosario DJ. - Pia Guanio, Miho Takeda (武田美保), Japanese synchronized swimmer
6. Honeylyn M. - Judy Ann Santos
7. Marlon F. - Mark Bautista
8. Mary Rose S. - Tata Villaruel
9. Guillermo S. - William Thio
10. Carmina DG. - Shaina Magdayao
11. Rommel R. - Rico Yan, R. I. P. (Yes, Memel, I always associate Rico to you, even during our HS days.)
12. Melissa DG. - Ronalissa Cheng
13. Joanne N. - Sarah Geronimo
14. Fidel N. - Edu Manzano
15. Marc Anthony G. - Bong Revilla
16. Pamela Vergel C. - Assunta de Rossi
17. Judilyn E. - Michelle Madrigal
18. my mom - Rio Locsin (especially after watching "Gulong ng Palad")/Keiko Matsusaka (松阪慶子), Japanese actress
19. Cristy S. - Teresa Teng (鄧麗君), Taiwanese singer
20. Rona Jean F. - Donna Cruz
21. Anne Therese C. - Christine Floirendo/Kristine Hermosa
22. Ms. Edna DC. - Cory Aquino
23. Jobert DC. - Rainier Castillo
24. Pamela DG. - Angelica Panganiban
25. Marie Grace P. - Claudine Barretto
26. Liza K. - Janice de Belen
27. Lei J. - Maui Taylor
28. Benedicto DGV. - Hubert Webb
29. Abby B. - Cheryl Cosim
30. Elliene U. - Joyce Jimenez
31. Mark EA. - Takeshi Kashima (鹿島丈博), Japanese gymnast
32. Oscar D. - Kousuke Kitajima (北島康介), Japanese swimmer
33. Warren L. - Lee Brennan (of 911), Joross Gamboa
34. Mary Jane L. - Julie Vega, R. I. P.
35. Arian T. - Tin Arnaldo
36. Melanie B. - Gladys Reyes
37. Daiki K. - Jericho Rosales
38. Jun A. - Rainier Castillo
39. Roald S. - Red Sternberg
40. George O. - Daniel Radcliffe (Harry Potter)
41. Leslie Y. - Carol Banawa
42. Chris M. - Jericho Rosales
43. Haruki S. - Jiro Manio
44. Haiyan L. - (the young) Aiza Seguerra
45. Angelica DG. - Lady Lee
46. Sheryl E. - Kathleen Go Quieng
47. Bernadette M. - Lani Mercado
48. Rosalinda P. - Vilma Santos
49. Benedict B. - Luis Manzano
50. Al (my PE 2 Social Dance classmate) - Lance Onate
51. Michael DL. - Bong Revilla
52. Bonilou A. - Christian Bautista
53. Jordan A. - Brian Villoria
54. John M. - Kazuhiro Watanabe (渡辺和洋), Japanese newscaster
55. Margielyn C. - Bernadette Sembrano
56. Socorro P. - Claudine Barretto
57. Marilyn F. - Angelika dela Cruz/Lucero, Mexican actress

Some people in the list are really popularly associated to their counterparts (i. e., not only by me). I hope I can recall more names for the next issue... Just send me your thoughts and/or reactions. I'll be waiting. (^。^)v

Short-lived Sunday

Short-lived Sunday
Sunday, February 19, 2006

Today began with me getting up from the bed exactly 12 o'clock noon. I still felt sleepy but I really needed to wake up as I would be hearing mass at 2 o'clock in the afternoon. I checked my e-mail, played Neopets a bit and read my Complex Analysis book when I noticed that it was already past 1 o'clock. I let water boil so that I could eat soba (そば, soba-Japanese buckwheat noodle) for lunch but as I was still waiting for the water to boil, I watched a Japanese drama (ブラザー☆ビ－ト, "Brother Beat"). I enjoyed watching it so I didn't notice the time. I immediately took a shower and gave up the option of eating noodles before going to the church. Hearing mass with a still empty stomach is a form of sacrifice anyway.

I reached the church just in time for the entrance song. The mass ended and I stayed a couple of minutes more to join the choir practice. We sang "Our Father" and "If We Hold on Together". I suggested that "Lead Me Lord" would be a nice communion song. So I will look for its sheet music and guitar chords so that we can practice it next time. After the practice, my friend Elmer (my junior or 後輩, "kouhai"), invited me to have some food in his dorm. Then, we took the free Jusco bus to Jusco department store having in mind that I would be doing some shopping for food.

We first checked out the second hand book and DVD shop near Jusco but found no quite interesting movies there. Next, we passed by Uniqlo (ユニクロ, pronounced "Yu-ni-klo") to check some winter clearance sale items. I found a pretty nice coat but told myself that I'd just come back to buy it. After leaving Uniqlo, I checked my phone (phone's clock as I had no watch today) and realized that I have no more time to shop for food. Instead, upon reaching the station (on our way back from Jusco), we just checked out the nearby Jujiya (十字屋) for some food stuffs. Luckily, some items there were cheap so I got some vegetables and decided to cook "sinigang na hipon" for dinner. I invited Elmer for dinner and he agreed. While watching "TV Patrol" web cast, I prepared our dinner. TV Patrol only lasted for about an hour so I ｌet him watch Brother Beat's first episode. He told me that he was interested in the drama. I liked it personally too as it is a family-oriented comedy/light drama featuring an unconventional Japanese family. It somehow reminds me of our local family-oriented sitcoms.

Now it is already 1:52 in the morning yet I still don't feel sleepy at all. These past few days, my sleeping time had reversed to around 4:00 am to 12:00 noon. But since I will be having my seminar next Tuesday, I have no choice but to force myself to sleep anytime soon so that I can return my sleeping time back to normal and to eventually prepare for my upcoming seminar.

Review: Tengoku no Honya~Koibi - Heaven's Bookstore~The Light of Love

天国の本屋~恋火 (Tengoku no Honya~Koibi - Heaven's Bookstore~The Light of Love)

Category:	Movies
Genre:	Romance

Japanese movie
Original Japanese title: 天国の本屋~恋火 (Tengoku no Honya~Koibi)
English title: Heaven's Bookstore (The Light of Love)

Cast:

Yuko Takeuchi (竹内結子) in a dual role as Shoko Hiyama (桧山翔子) and Kanako Nagase (長瀬香夏子)
Tetsuji Tamayama (玉山鉄二) as Kenta Machiyama (町山健太)

Synopsis: (I will make the synopsis in chronological order of events, unlike the order they were presented in the movie.)

Kenta Machiyama, as a child, was brought by his mother on a piano concert by the celebrated pianist Shoko Hiyama. At the end of the performance, the young Kenta went to the backstage to personally meet her. But as Shoko saw the boy in the backstage, she thought that he was just a missing child so she brought him over the piano and played a piece to him over and over again until his mother found him. This inspired Kenta to become a pianist himself.

At that time, Shoko has promised to marry her fiance, Mr. Takimoto (瀧本). Mr. Takimoto, on his on right has been famous over their town as a brilliant pyrotechnician. He is the only known maker of the "恋する花火 (koisuru hanabi)" or the "loving fireworks", a special Japanese-style firework that were traditionally the grand finale of the town's annual summer firework display. The firework has been legendary known to bring lovers together hence the name. Shoko had been inspired of Mr. Takimoto's work so she decided to compose piano pieces-one for each of the ten firework display to be launched by Mr. Takimoto. She had already composed the first nine pieces and she was on her way to start the last.

Soon Mr. Takimoto was overjoyed and brought his fiancee, Shoko to the place where he was preparing his fireworks. Unfortunately, his fireworks got fire accidentally and caused a terrible explosion. As a result, Shoko had one of her ears damaged, thus, lost its hearing which meant that she would not be able to play piano as gracefully as before. Mr. Takimoto got sad and then decided to stop making fireworks. Days passed and Shoko got hospitalized due to a certain sickness. Every time, she watched by the hospital window hoping to see her love's "loving fireworks", but to no avail. Poor Shoko died without seeing the fireworks and the sole maker.

Now, Kenta works as a pianist. Unfortunately, it seemed that he has no enough motivation making him not to perform at his best. As a consequence, he got fired. So much depressed by his termination, he went to a pub and drank all his way until he woke up the following morning.

To his surprise, he found himself in a bookstore. To surprise him more, he found himself on his first day of part-time work in Heaven's bookstore. Although he wasn't able to believe at first, the bookstore manager explained to him everything. Kenta is not yet dead. He was just hired to do part-time work in the bookstore. Thus, he will still be able to come back to earth. Also, in reality, people have 100 years to live. Suppose a person lives 80 years on earth. After death, the person will live his remaining 20 years in heaven. After which, all of his memories of his previous life on earth and in heaven will be erased in preparation of his or her rebirth on earth as another person. An apparent problem is when a person outlives the 100-year limit. A simple explanation will be bypassing heaven and be reborn directly on earth. A still confused Kenta roamed around heaven and to his amazement, found heaven so different from the common concept of heaven. In heaven, there are towns, shops and homes. People look the same age as of their death and never get old. Obviously, it is very difficult (though not impossible) to meet people who were close to you in your previous life.

On earth, Shoko has one niece who looks exactly like her. Kanako Nagase, the daughter of Shoko's sister, is one of the organizers of this year's summer festival. As a finale for the fireworks display, she wanted to bring back the ever famous "loving fireworks". But she came into trouble as there was only one person who knows how to make it-Mr. Takimoto. And as much as Kanako pleaded to Mr. Takimoto to make the fireworks, Mr. Takimoto declined.

So Kenta eventually got used to his new environment and started his job. He was first asked to read a book to a woman. While reading the book, Kenta noticed some musical notes written on one of the pages. As he was returning the book to the woman, he recognized her as the pianist Shoko. He told her how she inspired him to become a pianist. Shoko requested him to play her piano at home and Kenta also requested Shoko in return to play. But to his regret, Shoko told him about the firework accident and how she became unable to play the piano again.

On their next meeting, Shoko disclosed to Kenta that she used to compose piano pieces in correspondence to Mr. Takimoto's firework displays. Kenta revealed to Shoko that he is not yet dead and his part-time work is about to end, which will mean that he will go back soon. He requested to Shoko that they work on completing the last piano piece. As they completed the last piece, entitled "永遠 (Eien)" (Eternity), Shoko showed to Kenta all of her nine other works.

It was then revealed that Mr. Takimoto was blaming himself for the sadness and death of Shoko, so he stopped making fireworks. Kanako told Mr. Takimoto that her aunt never blamed him and instead, never gave up hoping that she would see him launch his fireworks again. Having said this, Kanako left everything for Mr. Takimoto to ponder about.

The day came for Kenta to go back to earth. Kenta was brought to the same spot where the fireworks display are being held, plus a piano on the grass. The last fireworks were launched without any trace of Mr. Takimoto, which made Kanako so sad. But as the people were about to go home after watching the fireworks, the trademark red lights flared up in the pitch black sky which were quickly recognized by everyone as the comeback of the "loving fireworks". Kenta remembered Shoko and played "Eternity" on the piano. Kanako ran to the location of the "loving fireworks". She saw there Mr. Takimoto and Kenta, playing the piano. Kanako recognized the melody of "Eternity", being it a work of her aunt and asked Kenta how come he knew the piece. Kenta, surprised to see a girl looking exactly as Shoko, responded "We had been together before. Would you believe?" Kanako answered a very sweet smile.

Review:

The first thing to be noticed here is the depiction of heaven, for Christian like me, the movie's concept of heaven made a very obvious deviation. In relation to this, I raised a question as to why Shoko still experiences ear pains while she is already in heaven. Again, this is in contradiction to the traditional heaven that we know.

Next to this is the way they put back the part-timers back to earth. To my understanding, several days had already passed after Kenta getting fired from work until the day of the fireworks display. Or perhaps, this time difference between heaven and earth is another glitch not explained in detail in the movie. Other than those that I mentioned, the story sounded well to me.

With regards to acting, I laud Yuko Takeuchi's portrayal of two roles. Most people may mistake the two roles as being played by two different actresses as they had too different personalities. Shoko was also made to look more mature than Kenta and Kanako. I also liked Tetsuji Tamayama's acting especially during the times that he was still puzzled about him being in heaven. Another plus is that both Takeuchi and Tamayama can both play the piano.

The locations used are so nice the heaven was presented as a very peaceful place. In the story, there are many shifts between heaven and earth, and between the past and the present but these shifts are very easy to recognize. The soundtrack also provided the appropriate atmosphere especially for depicting heaven.

A knowledge of Japanese culture may be necessary to fully understand the story and the movie. Several aspects of Japanese life and culture are depicted in the film. Examples of which are the summer fireworks display, working part-time, playing musical instruments (as in almost every Japanese knows how to play a particular musical instrument), parents having a say to what their children do, and the like.

I, as still a beginner in learning how to play the piano, was able to fully appreciate the story and the movie. The movie will also touch people who were feeling so burdened with the life they are living now. It will give them an inspiration to keep persevering.

(This is the first Japanese movie that I watched and reviewed, aside from the horror film "The Ring" which I watched about two years ago.)

お誕生日おめでたいなぁ

Soup and spaghetti

　*For personal reasons, an English translation is preferred not to be provided for this entry.
都合により、このエントリに対しての英訳は用意されていないことにしました。

　今日は僕にとって、特別な人の誕生日だ。あの人は僕と一緒にいないが、こんな大事な日を祝いたかった。あの人と別れてから、毎年誕生日を祝うことにしていた。ある年は、親しい同僚の人をおごった。今年はどうしようかなと思って、今日という日は近づいたら、わくわくして待っていた。
　今朝、12時ごろ起きて、今日はこの日だとすぐわかった。けれど、頭の中に、もういいよと何度も聞いたことがあった。もういいということはこんな無駄な何もないためのことだ。あの人とも別れて、祝う訳はないということだ。しかし、心は頭が行ったことを守りたくなかった。何故か自分がわからないけど、こんな迷っている状態に今日を過ぎた。
　だから、前もって今日の午後のミサに参列しようと思ったのに、そのミサの最後の3分の1しか聞かなかった。胸が重く感じて、今日のミサの遅刻したことを誤解した。けれど、寂しくなりたくないため、ミサが終わったら、何か楽しいことがやれば、嬉しいなぁと思いながら、長くなった髪を切ってもらうことにした。
　床屋さんのところははっきりわからないが、この間ウェルサンピアから家に帰るときタクシーで行って、床屋さんはどの辺にあるか少しわかっていた。教会から約15分かかって、とこやさんに着いた。今日は僕より3人が並んでいたが、やっと髪を切ってもらった。
　帰るときはちょっと道を変えて、古本屋さんに行ってみた。集まっている漫画の「ふしぎ遊戯」の最後にまだ手に入っていないvolumeが見つけた。その本とビデオ2枚を買って、本屋さんを出た。
　もう一度違う道をとって、スーパーへ行った。ref cakeとスパゲッティの材料を買った。「しまった」と自分に言われた。材料を買ったから、誕生日祝いは必ずやるという意味だ。後輩を呼んで誘って、家に料理した。楽しさはいっぱくて、スパゲッティとref cake作りを全部ビデオで撮った。今夜のスパゲッティはちょっと変だ。気が付かなくて、豚のひき肉を買い忘れてしまった。もう7時過ぎだったから、店やスーパーはもう休みだ。家にあるのはtuna flakesしかなかった。スパゲッティはこれと作ってうまいかどうか分からないけど、仕方がないから、tuna flakesを豚のひき肉の代わりに使った。料理が失敗すると思ったのに、うまくできた。スープも用意した。後輩と一緒に食べた。あとは、アイスクリームを出した。後輩は今日は何があるかと聞いた。僕が答えたのは「誕生日だ。けれど、僕のではない。」
　あの人の特別な日も僕の今日の同様に素敵な日になるように願っている。

Gift wrapped in a different package

This is the first time a persocom would write on this blog. Yuzuki is currently doing some DVD burning stuffs so I she was temporarily disconnected from the network. For this reason Chii will be transcribing everything that Master says... *

After the 2:00 PM mass I got too little time to get on a Jusco bus on my way to Jusco. Jusco buses offer free rides to the Jusco department store. It was already afternoon and I only had one hour to roam around and buy what I needed.

I saw what I wanted and it was on sale. But before I surrendered my hard-earned or should I say hardly kept money to the cashier, I decided to check the nearby shop for the price of that same merchandise. Good thing that they are selling the item on the same price. Now my advantage in getting the one from Jusco is that it won't be that a shame to the bus driver on the way home that since I won't be carrying an item not bought from the store. So I quickly went back to Jusco and bought the thing over.

Unfortunately, it was already 5 o'clock in the afternoon. In this between autumn-and-winter season in Yamagata, the sun sets way so much earlier as compared to summer that even made my head think that I was having my biological clock disorientated. In other words, it has been so dark already as compared to the still sun shiny afternoon setting of Yamagata during the spring and summer.

Back to my story, it was already five o'clock in the afternoon and the last Jusco bus will leave in fifteen minutes time. It would be difficult for me if I get left by bus since I would be carrying this big box on my way home which I estimated to be around 30-45 minutes on foot against the searing chill of the Yamagata evening. Not to mention the around 10 kilogram package that I need to burden. The staff told me to wait for just ten minutes and that had been a relief for me as I thought I could still catch the bus.

As I was still looking at the other merchandises there, from time to time I peeped at the counter looking how was my package had been doing but for the next five minutes they were still not yet done with wrapping it. With so much pain in my heart, I accepted the fact that I would surely miss the train. Immediately, my mind ran simulations as to which method should I take upon going home. There were two algorithms that played in my mind. First was to hail a taxi and have myself delivered right in front of our buildings entrance steps. Having no experience of taking a taxi from Jusco to my home, I just made a slight approximation that it might cost me around 2,000 to 3,000 yen. The logic switch gates quickly indicated that the discount won't be of no use as it would just go to the taxi fare. The second, and definitely the cost cutting method was to carry this big and bulky stuff home by foot. It would take me so much a time but will be able to spare two or three paper bills in my wallet. But the map data base warned me that it would really be a long way home.

The optimization systems suggested that I should look for the taxi stand, just in case. Which was what I did. But there was no taxi there. I just saw three phone numbers of different taxi companies servicing Yamagata. I hesitated to call as I thought of how much money would be spent just for the taxi ride. I tried to carry the box and I guessed I could managed to carry it and walk home.

Just a few steps until I reached the first crossroad away from Jusco and I felt the heaviness of the thing. It was not that the thing itself was too heavy for me to carry, but it was the length of time that I have to carry it. My arms felt strained and I felt that urge to put down my load and take a few moments of rest. I saw a taxi coming towards me but it was too late. I was still carrying the box as it passed by me and it was too far enough to see me calling him. So I just did the cycle of carrying the box until a considerable crossroad, take a rest and resume carrying but the longer I move far from the store, the heavier the load seemed to be. At this rate, I thought I would not be able to bring it home.

If only I had brought my bicycle and semi-rubber strap, there should be no difficulty in bring this thing home. But there was no regrets to be made with regards to the bicycle as it could be of no help anymore. I was contemplating of spending around 1,500 pesos for a worry free trip home and save my energy for another task or to continue my agony and penitence of carrying it despite of the severe coldness of the night. I made a slow decision and prayed to God and to the Our Lady of Peace and Good Voyage in Antipolo for a taxi. I waited in the spot where I was resting, hopefully thinking that a cab would appear and save me from my self-created misery. But to no avail. I desperately resumed my cycle of carrying my load and still hoped that my fervent petition for a taxi would be granted.

I was already exhausted and my arms were so weak but I was still a straight road away from Jusco. It wasn't still safe to claim that I've already made a third of my journey. I was thinking of calling my friend who owns a car and ask a favor to fetch me here and bring me home. But that would be too much trouble on my friend's part. I also thought of calling a friend who owns a bicycle to bring a semi-rubber strap so I can mount the box on the bicycle and have my friend accompany me on my way home. But the again it would be too much for my friend. I also imagined myself leaving the box right there, go home for my bike and strap and go back to fetch it. But my fear that someone might take it home trashed this current idea in my mind. I was about to call the National Directory Assistance Hotline (104 for Japan) for a taxi customer service number but I again hesitated. I was about to give up and eat my pride to call 104 again when I saw the light of hope flashing before me.

I found myself standing beside a bus stop sign. In it posted was the schedule for two buses-both of them would stop at Yamagata Station. Yamagata Station would be a little too far pass my home that that would be better as compared to walking the entire route home. But wait, what if the buses' last trips were already over? I looked at the timetable and saw that the last trips would be 6:17 and 6:57 PM. I checked my watch-6:14! Luckily I made it quite just on time for one of the buses. After a few moments of waiting, the bus grandiosely made its dramatic entrance and I got on.

There were only two passengers in the bus aside from me. Thanks to the Yamako company that they didn't stop this bus service despite the obviously very low patronage of their buses. I checked the bus fare to Yamagata Station and was surprised to see that the bus would also make a stop at Yamagata City Hall, the bus stop nearest to my place! I was able to sit comfortably (just figuratively as the box had been so huge that we can not squeeze each other on the seat and sit together harmoniously. But still I wouldn't move myself away from my precious box. We've been through a lot already!) and breathe smoothly as I enjoyed the luxury of being on top of a velvet bus seat. Thanks heavens! I asked for a taxi and They've sent me a bus. They certainly knew that it would be hard for me to shell out such a big amount for the taxi fare. This incident really happened this way so that I would once again remember how much They love me. Thank You, Lord. Thank you, Mahal na Birhen ng Antipolo.

* Yuzuki is my high-spec laptop while Chii is my oh-yeah-it's-also-a-pretty-good-spec desktop.

Here Is Gone

HERE IS GONE
木之本桃矢(Toya Kinomoto)＆月城雪兎(Yukito Tsukishiro)

You and I got somethin’
But it's all and then it's nuthin’ to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes through your intentions for me, yeah

And we wake up in the breakdown
With the things we never thought we could be, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin’
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin’
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don’t need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
And I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

你好 (Ni hao)

Watching "The Last Samurai" made me realize that I have a penchant for languages. This is a bit relevant for today's theme. I will talk a little about our exchange program yesterday at Ookura village in Yamagata Prefecture.

I was chosen to present a 10-minute slideshow presentation to the children of Ookura village. I had been notified about a month ago but my cramming instinct didn't fail me again to make me work on my slideshow overnight on the night before the actual day of the exchange program. I had been worrying about using the school's computer installed with Microsoft Powerpoint but as I still had no enought data and picture files until last Friday, I just settled myself in thinking that I would just use my computer at home with Open Office installed on my Linux platform.

I tried the slideshow editing software but found it too difficult to use. I regreted that I didn't prepared early enough to make it on Friday but luckily, I checked out Open Office's website and found out that they'd just released a new version. I downloaded it and installed in in my Windows platform hoping that this last choice would be able to buy me some time for me to sleep. To my astonishment, Open Office Impress (OO's version of Powerpoint) was so easy to use and almost made me forget that it was not Powerpoint that I was using.

I was able to work on my slideshow smoothly and that enabled me to add more topics and enhance the layout of my presentation. To cut the long story short, I finished at around 5:45 am, leaving me with barely 45 minutes to close my eyes and feel the warmth of my think blanket against the almost freezing autumn dawn of Yamagata.

Ookura village is quite far from Yamagata City. I thought it would be around 60 minutes by car but in reality it had been one and a half hour. Along the way I was so worried of getting car sick besides the known fact that I had no enough sleep. Luckily, I neither felt dizzy nor sleepy during the long journey.

My presentation went well though I wasn't really fulfilled as the time limit was so short and I had put so much information on my presentation. Anyway, after everyone had their presentation, a Taiwanese professor had a game where he taught everyone simple greetings and expressions in Chinese. Here are what I learned:

謝謝 (谢谢 in Simple Chinese) - This is "Thank You" in Chinese, "Arigato" in Japanese. It is pronounced as "Sheshe". The character itself means "thanks".
不氣起 (不气起 in Simple Chinese) - This is "You're welcome." in Chinese, "Doitashimashite" in Japanese. It is pronounced slightly like "Bukechi". As I understand, the three characters literaly mean, "not minding what happened", exactly "Walang anuman" in Tagalog.
早安 - This is "Good morning." in Chinese, "Ohayo" in Japanese. It is pronounced as "Sao an". The first character means "early". The next one means "safety".
晩安 - This is "Good evening." in Chinese, "Kombanwa" in Japanese. It is pronounced as "Wan an". Some of you may recall that one of my favorite Mandarin songs is Vic Zhou's "Wen Rou De Wan An" (A Gentle Good Night). The two characters mean "night" and "safety", respectively.
你好 - This is the well-known "Hello." in Chinese, the counterpart of "O genki desu ka?" in Japanese. It is pronounced as "Ni haw". Literally means "you, well?"

I also showed off to one of my Korean schoolmates but letting her hear some of the Korean words that I learned from "Stairways to Heaven". Yesterday was a day full of fun and words from different countries.

Dirty Politics

I am not well-rounded when it comes to politics but through writing I will try it once.

A friend from the Philippines informed me about Arroyo’s admission of calling a particular Comelec (Commission on Elections) official regarding the turnout of last year’s presidential elections. Before that, my mother told me about the accusations being blamed to Arroyo’s husband, which were the same accusations that led to the ouster of former president Erap Estrada.

I am not turning partisan to either sides but please let me express what I am thinking right now.

It is quite shameful for the country to have these kinds of exposes. Having the highest official of the land conversing with a Comelec official during the canvassing of votes leads the common tao (Tagalog for “people”) none other than to think that there is a cheating underway. The power of the chief executive need not be expressed in horsepower or whatsoever physical unit. It is clearly understood by everyone as influence-her influence to make the election turnout yield to her side. Yes, yes, the accused is innocent unless proven guilty. But in the first place, just only for the sake of a clear conscience, she should not engage herself in these kinds of conversation. I believe that even though an election is an obvious manifestation of democracy-power of the people to voice out their opinion. It is in my solemn belief that God’s intervention, especially in this Catholic nation in Southeast Asia, is not just a small thing to take for granted. What I mean is, whoever is governing the Philippines in the Malacañang Palace at any given time has been selected or should I say, allowed by the Almighty to lead His Filipino people. Most of you will react, how about the not so good presidents? I would just say that they were also included in God’s plan to shape our little country. Remember that in the book of Job, God let the Devil send pestilence and misfortunes to Job-so that Job’s loyalty and faith to God be put on a test.

On wire-tapping

I am not sure if we should thank the wire-tapping technology for exposing these tapped conversations of Arroyo and Garci. Yes, may be for this instance, wire-tapping or in a more general term, spying, on someone else’s conversation helped the Filipino people know their president more. But on a general viewpoint, it is still an invasion of an individual’s privacy. It now gives me an idea how unsafe it is in this modern age of wireless technology. This leads me to think that this is not just the first time that Arroyo has been eavesdropped of her calls. Not even Arroyo was the first “victim” of this form of treachery. See how the Devil works by using what Man calls technology.

The Husband

I also feel shame (once again) for Arroyo, especially with what her husband is allegedly doing. I am not a member of any prosecution or defense panels but given that all allegations to Mike Arroyo were true, how shameful of him to repeat history that once overthrew Erap? They know that their critics are all eyes on them, and why still they have the guts to engage themselves in the collections from illegal gambling?

The Widow

I had never been a fan of Susan Roces but this is not the reason for me writing this portion of today’s article.

I was never impressed that someone who has no experience with politics will be righteous enough to take over millions of Filipinos under him or her. As I always heard from people before last year’s presidential election, “Yeah, he might be innocent with corruption and dirty politics. But it would be the advisers and people who would treat themselves as wise that would sweep FPJ away from having a clean administration.” I don’t know what made FPJ change his previous statement saying that never he would run for elections. And now, even after his death, his widow is trying her best to act the best role of her life.

Oh, well. May be it is the same reason that made Arroyo crap her nationwide announcement before that she herself won’t run for the seat anymore.

* I know many people might react positively or negatively with what I’ve written. Well, there are many ways to reach me.

遅刻！遅刻！(Chikoku! Chikoku!)* **

Whew! I slept early last night but I ended up almost running to school for my 10 o'clock seminar. My fault was I forgot to set the clock to wake me up before ten. Thursdays are usually my school-free day but as we are having this special lecture series for the week, my ever-loved Thursday has not been spared. My mobile phone has a wake up function set at 10 am and its sound was the one that woke me up.

My goodness! It's exactly 10 o'clock. I was wondering why the clock didn't rang but I immediately remembered that I was not able to set it. This would be my latest late in the whole lecture series. It was so shameful to the lecturer. I immediately got dressed up and brushed my teeth without eating anything and run to the street to wait for a cab. I'd rather shell out about a thousand yen just to buy a few minutes off instead of riding a bike. But heavens, no taxi had been passing for the five minutes that I'd been staying in the street. I decided to just go to school by bicycle then as I had no other choice.

The lecturer seemed to be anticipating my delayed arrival. He didn't erase the lecture notes on the board and he kept on writing stuffs in the remaining small spaces on the board. May be he knew that I could not understand much Japanese from his explanations and that I was only relying on any lecture notes that I could copy. My assumption got stronger as he started to erase what were written on the board as I begun to copy them a few minutes ago. Too bad, there was a professor attending the lecture for the day and he knows me. He might tell my professor that I arrived half-an-hour late in today's lecture.

I was not able to escape the temptation of feeling sleepy during the lecture. But I managed to keep myself awake as soon as I detected my drowsiness.

It was already lunchtime and I decided to have lunch in the university cafeteria instead of going home to save time and to make sure that I won't be late again as the lecture resumes in the afternoon. But as I finished my meal, my tummy felt awkward so I had no choice but to rush home.

I really like rushing so to keep the long story short, I arrived one minute late to the lecture venue. Not that bad as the lecture was just about to start the second leg of the lecture.

He dismissed us half-an-hour ahead of schedule. It was so nice, as I could go home earlier. As I was on my way home, I was thinking of downloading and installing Vine Linux in my computer so I can use Japanese Latex at home. Aside from that, I felt inspired to resume doing my composition writing homework in Japanese. Although I already have almost half-a-dozen of unsubmitted compositions for correction, I particularly finished my article about my family as I am planning to upload it in my home page. I was really inspired as I surprisingly ended up with at least three pages! Upon going back my Thai friend asked me how to cook "turon saging" which he began to like when I served it during our cherry blossom viewing last spring. As he was not still having his dinner by that time, and me craving for another dinner as I had mine at about five in the afternoon, went to the nearby noodle shop and sipped some hot soup and hearty noodle bowl.

After going back from the noodle shop, I revised my personal homepage by uploading my article about the family with its English translation. I am planning to upload most of my Japanese compositions and translate them to English (and eventually to Tagalog and Spanish) little by little so that I will have a bilingual personal home page when I finish it.

Got to take a look at my old blog site here in Angelfire and I noticed that I had better articles here than those in my blogspot account. Now I am confused as I have three blog accounts: this, the one in blogspot, and the one in multiply (not to mention the one in Friendster that I have no plans of developing.) Oh well, as you can see, I added another entry in my web log in Angelfire.

Hope to keep it active again. OK, gotta go... I really need to work on the report that I need to submit to the lecturer later today.

* "I'm late! I'm late!" in Japanese. From Rei Ayanami's line in Ep. 26 of the anime Neon Genesis Evangelion.
** Originally posted in my Angelfire web blog on the same date.

My passion for missionary work under scrutiny

I slept a bit too late for the night or should I say too early for the day... approximately past 4 am to give you an idea. I am not really helping myself overcome my developing insomnia but I really need someone to talk to. A good friend kept me company by chatting with me through YM. It was not healthy physically to stay that late but it keeps me emotionally healthy and sane.

As an obvious result, I woke up late. About past 12 noon just only to attend the four-hour Japanese language teaching training course. Yeah, you got it right! I am attending a course on how to teach Japanese as a part of my volunteer work. In spite the fact that it is against my will to expose myself to extreme boredom for four straight hours in the middle of an all-Japanese audience, except me of course, I still convinced myself that I should go.

Everything was so perfect as I came just right in time in Kajo Central for the event. I proceeded to the fifth floor hoping that it would given a bit of a nice feeling making it on time this time-even though I know that the next two hundred and forty hours will be hard for me. But as I tried to enter the door, I saw that the sign at the door of the only room in the fifth level is different-not the name of the venue for the event.

Ok, the people left in the ＹＩＦＡ (山形市国際交流協会 Yamagata City International Friendship Association) told me that the meeting is being held at another building. They gave me a map and instructed me to go there. As not having been to the venue even just once, I don't know where it is actually. With a map and some courage, I asked two Japanese elderly people for directions. They whole-heartedly gave me the instructions and hoped that I would find my destination easily.

It was already a quarter before two when I was walking according to the directions that they had given me-according to the directions as I assume. Then after some minutes of not finding the venue, I started to worry. Am I still on the way? Or am I already lost? I've been walking quite far already and the sun was so hot that I feel more exhausted. I decided to get my bicycle from where I left it so that I can move around the place looking for the venue.

I got my bike but in my mind I was tempted not to go anymore. It was already 2:15 at that time-too late for arriving supposedly by 1:00 pm. I thought of meeting my friends instead and just tell the people in the YIFA that I wasn't able to find the way. Anyway, the session will be in Japanese and perhaps I would barely understand not even a bit of it. I was about to go back then when my heart spoke to me, "How could you do missionary work if your can not find places even though you've been already provided with directions?" Hearing these words, I made a firm decision of attending no matter how late I am.

I took the way that I walked a few minutes earlier. I went straight ahead for a few hundred meters. Then I found out that I can not see any building that fits the description of the venue. I prayed to God to please help me as I am already lost. My instinct told me to turn to the right of a simple road and to my very eyes I saw the building I was looking for.

The session already finished its first half and the people are having a break when I came. The Japanese people who know me greeted me. I asked for apologies for being so late. I just told them that I got lost find the venue. They smiled at me and told me that it was nothing to worry about as almost all of them also had a hard time looking for the venue and came about an hour late.

The second half of the seminar started and I was surprised that the speaker was very good. He is also Japanese-teaching Japanese people how to teach Japanese to foreigners (like me) in a communicative way. To my delight, I never found any difficulty understanding his talk. May be it was just because of his usage of words that are already in my Japanese vocabulary. But it was a very reason for me to enjoy the session and to find it too interesting and informative.

We had another 10 minute break before the last part and during that free time, two of my previous volunteer Japanese instructors saw me. They were surprised seeing me there attending the session as I was just a mere foreign Japanese language learning a year ago-and now I am with them attending the seminar as a Japanese language instructor myself. They expressed their joy that in a short span of time I became fluent in the language. (Although I myself think that I still have lots to learn.)

The seminar ended a few minutes past five. I saw another Japanese language instructor of mine as I left the conference room. I don't regret not seeing my friends in exchange of attending today's seminar. To treat myself, I bought some Japanese dishes in the nearby Viking shop (food are charged by the weight). おいしかったよ！（Oishikatta yo! It was delicious!)

Prega per noi*

A thought to ponder came into my mind today. How to pray? Many people pray to God. But there could have been different ways on how people do it. Most people recite traditional prayers. Some do their novenas. Some offer gifts and sacrifices. Some pray to saints. Some pray directly to God. Some pray using their own free thoughts and words.

I met Father Pearse this afternoon to talk about the church schedule for next month. It was about five minutes before six thirty. And by seven, he would be having the Holy Hour. So after our talk, I told him that I might as well join the Holy Hour. He told me that I can just leave whenever I want. Many people do that. Some people stay only for five to ten minutes. Some arrive in the middle and some arrive within the last few minutes of the Holy Hour.

I stayed. As Father told me that during the Holy Hour, there are no pre-determined prayers, I can pray freely. So I started with praying the common prayers. But I still wanted to stay after I finished my prayers so I just talked to God directly. I talked to Him just like a friend. I know that He knows what are inside my heart and mind even without saying a word but still I talked to Him heart-to-heart and mind-to-mind. This way I really feel comfortable. I can freely express to him everything I want to tell him.

I remembered my Religion teacher in second grade. He taught us how to pray. First, we gave thanks to the Lord for all the graces that we are receiving. Then, acknowledge our sins and ask for forgiveness. Last would be the things that we would like God to give us. Since then, my personal prayers have been in that pattern. Everyone has his or her own ways of praying but for me it is my personal routine.

I remembered my prayer book also in the Philippines. I have my "Gabay" (Guide) prayer book at home but I was not able to bring it here in Japan. It is very handy as I have the Rosary prayers, Order of the Mass, Stations of the Cross and other prayers written there.

As minutes passed during the Holy Hour I felt so light that I am talking to God. I remembered that this is the same feeling I feel every time I pray in the Adoration Chapel. Anyway, the setting is almost the same as Father exposed the Holy Eucharist in the altar. An hour has already passed and the Holy Hour will be held again next week.

At home, thoughts about prayers remained in my mind. I recited the Holy Rosary before going to bed. To tell you frankly now I have the habit of praying the five decades of Hail Mary the Holy Rosary in five different languages-English, Tagalog, Latin, Japanese and Italian-to keep me away from feeling sleepy and to learn how to pray in different languages. Before I also tried praying the entire rosary in Italian but I can not still memorize the Lord's Prayer and Glory Be. However, I do feel that I still have lots of time to learn them anyway. Pray for me.

* "Pray for us" in Italian.

Golden Week 2005

2005年度ゴールデンウィーク

４月２８日(木)－東京に到着

　　　　　　　－東京ディズニーランドの遠足(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

４月２９日(金)－東京ディズニーシー(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

４月３０日(土)－昼間休憩

　　　　　　　－祖師谷留学生会館に住んでいるフィリピン人の留学生とのバドミントンと運動(参加者:アビ,ロメオ,ジャニス,ディディス,アレックス,ブリックス,ラーリ,ダヤン,エディーお兄さん,マリテス)

５月０１日(日)－新宿にあるインド料理のレストランでの昼食(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

－東京都庁の撮影(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

　　　　　　　－四ツ谷の聖イグナチオ教会でのフォークミサ(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

　　　　　　　－港区の東京タワー遠足(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

５月０２日(月)－祖師谷留学生会館に住んでいるフィリピン人の留学生たちの料理会（エリックは「豚肉とブロッコリーとオイスターソース」を作った）(参加者: (アビ,ロメオ,ジャニス,ディディス,チー,アレックス,ギング, ダヤン,エディーお兄さん, レヤ)

　　　　　　　－アビ家での飲み会、モノポリーのゲーム(参加者:アビ,ロメオ, ジャニス,ディディス,チー,アレックス)

５月０３日(火)－昼間休憩

　　　　　　　－お台場の遠足、大観覧車乗車(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

　　　　　　　－祖師谷留学生会館に住んでいるフィリピン人の留学生たちとのカラオケ(参加者:

５月０４日(水)－阿部家の訪問、高山社長の出会い、うなぎレストランでの夕食

　　　　　　　－浅草の浅草寺(せんそうじ)の訪問(一人で)

　　　　　　　－六本木でのバーホッピング(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

５月０５日(木)－多摩市のドーミー永山の訪問(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

　　　　　　　－Toho Cinemaでの「ハイド・アンド・シーク」(Hide and Seek)の映画(ジャニスさんと一緒に)

　　　　　　　－山形に戻る

５月０６日(金)－山形にと到着

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Golden Week 2005
Thu Apr 28 - Arrival at Tokyo

- Tokyo Disneyland with Janice

Fri Apr 29 - Tokyo Disney Sea with Janice

Sat Apr 30 - rest during the daytime

- Badminton and gym with international student of Filipino who lives in Soshigaya International Student Hall (Abby, Romeo, Janice, Didith, Alex, Brix, Larry, Dianne, Kuya Eddie, Maritess)

Sun May 01 - Lunch at an Indian restaurant in Shinjuku with Janice

- Picture taking at Tokyo Metropolitan Government area

- Folk Mass in Saint Ignatius Church in Yotsuya

- Excursion to Tokyo Tower in Minato Ward

Mon May 02 - Dinner/Cooking session with Filipino students living in Soshigaya International Student Hall (Eric cooked “Pork and Broccoli in Oyster Sauce”.) (Abby, Romeo, Janice, Didith, Chie, Alex, Ging, Dianne, Kuya Eddie, Lea)

- Drinking in Abby’s place and Monopoly game (Abby, Romeo, Janice, Didith, Chie, Alex)

Tue May 03 - rest during the daytime

- Excursion to Odaiba and getting on the large Ferris wheel

- Karaoke with Filipino students living in Soshigaya International Student Hall (Dianne, Dennis, Lea, Janice)

Wed May 04 - Afternoon meeting/visit to Abe Family and Mr. Takayama in Saitama

- Dinner with Mr. Takayama and Mr. Abe in an eel restaurant

- Visit to Senso-ji Temple in Asakusa

- Bar hopping with Janice in Roppongi Hills

Thu May 05 - Visit to Dormy Nagayama in Tama City with Janice

- Viewing of the movie “Hide and Seek” in Toho Cinema.

- Return to Yamagata.

Fri May 06 - Arrival to Yamagata

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Article in Japanese: New Year in the Philippines

Please allow me to publish online some of the articles I have written in Japanese. Most of the time, I will be providing translations in English.

　フィリピンでは、1月1日はお正月です。お正月はフィリピンで最もカラフルな祝賀の1つです。 家族と友人は、大晦日の真夜中に夕食を集めて、共有しています。彼らは食物と果物を準備しています。最も顕著であるのは、長寿を象徴するように、ヌードルの料理を作っています。そして、お金を象徴するように果物は大切です。 お正月の間、多くのフィリピン人が、次の年を繁栄しているものにするように習慣と伝統を観測しています。 例えば、人々は、12種類の丸い果物を集めて、食卓の周りに置いています。果物は家庭にお金が来るためのものです。そして、長寿を達成するのにスパゲッティやビフンなどのヌードルを食べています。子供たちの身長が高くなるように、時計が12時を打つとき、跳んでいます。そして、悪霊を追い払うために音を立てています。人々は、一年中お金を持つために自分達のポケットにコインを入れています。 そ して、不運を追い払うために花火と爆竹を明るくしています。お金を招待するために、丸いデザインで衣服を着ています。幸運を歓迎するためにドアに果物、 （例えば、ぶどう）を掛けています。ドアや窓や引き出しなどは、運が入るように開かれています。ほかの習慣もやっています。

　フィリピンでは、お正月はクリスマスと一緒に祝われています。 そ ういうわけで、人々は教会へミサを参列に行って、挨拶を送るために親類の家を訪問しています。そして、その代わりに、子供は親類から贈り物を受け取ってい ます。最も一般的な贈り物がお金です。大勢の家族と友人は、故郷に帰って、集めて、再会をして、祝っています。ところで、中国のお正月も祝っています。

New Year in the Philippines

January 1 is New Year in the Philippines. New Year is one of the most colorful celebrations in the Philippines. Families and friends gather together and share the dinner at the midnight of the New Year's Eve. They prepare food and fruits. Most remarkable are the noodles that symbolize long life; and the fruits, which symbolize money. During New Year, many Filipinos observe customs and traditions to make the coming New Year a prosperous one. For example, people collect 12 kinds of round fruits and put them around the dining table. These fruits are for money to come in the household. People eat noodles such as spaghetti and bihon to achieve long life. Children jump as the clock strikes twelve for them to grow tall. People put coins in their pockets to have money all-year round. Children make noise to drive evil spirits away. People light up fireworks and firecrackers to drive away bad luck. People wear clothes with round designs to invite money. People hang fruits in the door to welcome good luck. Doors, windows and drawers are opened to let the luck come in, and so on.

New Year is celebrated in the Philippines along with Christmas. As such, people visit relatives to send greetings and in return, the children receive gifts from the relatives. Most common gift is in the form of money. Many families and friends gather together and celebrate reunions and homecomings. Also, Chinese New Year is also celebrated.

Two Dreams

Note for the readers: I am not claiming to be a visionary of any sort. I am just an ordinary person. I just had these dreams and I do not want to keep them alone as they might have meanings. These two articles were written March 27, 2005.

A Dream About Hell

Account of a dream sometime in January or February of 2005

In a dream, I was once like St. John in the book if the Revelation, guided by an angel, to the deep area of Hell. I was toured around just like an observer. It seemed like everyone in there did not notice me, as they continue what they were doing.

Inside was dark, although fires everywhere give off light all over the place. I was guided to the main area, should I say a hall, as everyone were there and it seemed like they are having some kind of ritual or activity. I moved around and saw that the area was surrounded by somewhat like a wall made of wood-deep rusty brown in color as lighted by the burning flames. The wall has many arched-shaped wholes that serve as passages. There were people beyond the wall and there were so many people inside the main area. The front part was like theater's stage. It was well lighted as compared to the main area. The Beast was there but I did not look at it. There were many creatures accompanying the Beast in the front area. People were screaming, though I was not sure if due to pain or due to enjoyment of what were going on.

I was then guided to pass through on of the arches. Ironic to my assumption that that particular arch was the same as the other arches in the wall, it led to a small chamber. Inside, there were demons making noises, just like people chatting with each other in a party. I noticed that in the middle of the chamber, there was a table with white cloth and on top of it I saw a horrible creature. It was a human but in an abnormal form-like a person born with physical abnormalities. The person was lying there naked, his limbs were very long. I was not able to look at him so closely but it seemed that he had his limbs connected and he lacked some of his limbs. He had a very dark-colored skin and he was mute. He was in Hell as he was very lustful during his life on earth. He was gay and had many sexual affairs with the same sex. But I will never forget his eyes and face as he looked exactly like one of my friends. Should I name him? Perhaps, I will give a hint instead. He is fond of using his nickname instead of his real name. His nickname starts with the letter M.

The demons loudly asked him to perform some tricks-tricks like twisting his body parts. He did the tricks very well. His body was very flexible so that he could make any form of twisting. The demons laughed and told him that he would perform for the Beast-not body twisting but sex positions. So from performing body tricks, he shifted to assimilating sex positions alone. He just then smiled-like feeling so flattered as he would perform in front of the Beast. I felt like I wanted to cry as I was thinking he was indeed my friend. I felt sorry that because of his immoral life while on earth, now he was in Hell. But it was still a mystery to me, why he looked like he was born with physical abnormalities.

A Dream About the Second Coming

Account of another dream sometime in January or February of 2005

In another dream, I had a vision of the Second Coming. It was not as long as my previous vision of Hell but it had been very detailed.

I was in a city, an urban place with modern technologies, tall buildings, business establishments and many other signs of development. I was particularly in a busy street. It was night then. I knew that I was not alone although I was not sure whether I was with my family or with my friend or friends during that night.

Suddenly, we heard a very loud sound. I could not describe the sound that well but I found it similar to the sound of rumbling rocks as I heard during the July 16, 1990 earthquake in the Philippines. It was so scary so that many people panicked and run away. For my case and whoever family or friend that was or were with me at that time, I or we was/were not able to move out of our place.

I felt very afraid when the land where we were standing broke open. I though we were going to die as we fell down the crack but we were able to stand on top of somewhere down there. As such, we were still able to witness what happened next.

We all looked up the heavens and saw that a very bright light came out in the middle of the dark skies. It was very bright red-orange light. I was not able to see what was behind the very bright light as my eyes could not stand looking at it. I then felt this unexplainable fear but I was sure that this is the end of the world as described in the scriptures and that the Son of God has finally come!

I do not know the real reason why I had these two visions but perhaps they appeared to me as means to let me aware of these things and that they exist and will soon occur. Let us pray to God that we would be ready when these things happen.